End of my first year at uni

 


The end of my first year at uni


When people said that life’s too short, I never understood what they meant,

But now I think I recognise the meaning, to a certain extent.

 

This year hasn’t been easy, but it’s shown me that life moves far too fast,

Without knowing it you’ll soon be looking back on the past.

 

I started this year with uncertainties, about how things might work out,

But a year down the line, and I certainly didn’t need to have any doubts.

 

I can’t forget what I went through, I can’t forget how it made me feel,

But I can use it to help me get through the challenges I face and maybe in time I might heel.

 

Although this year has been far from easy, I wouldn’t have changed a thing,

Its taught me things that I would never have learnt had I not decided to be brave and swing.

 

I’ve learnt for myself the true meaning of trust and understanding,

I’ve learnt that I don’t have to change myself in order to avoid misunderstanding.

 

After years of struggling with friendships, I’ve finally found my group of people,

People who see me for who I am, people who make me feel equal.

 

A group who love and accept me, no matter of the unique ways in which I may act,

A group who I can be myself around, who understand and know how to react.

 

So although at first I had my doubts, there really was no need to feel scared,

I’ve found my group of people and because of that I now feel prepared.

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