My journey, a journey to finding me - poem

 



My Journey, a journey to finding me - poem


The day that I found out, I wish I could have known then what it would all be about.

I wish I could have known then that it would all be ok, and that actually this diagnosis would make sense of everything that had stood in my way.

That all the confusion and all of the pain would now be explained by this one single day.

That this one single day would now pave the way for a life filled with happiness instead of days filled with dismay.

 

The day that I struggled, I wish I could have remembered then that its ok to feel troubled.

I wish I could have remembered then that dark days don’t last, and that those feelings of trouble would soon be in the past.

That whilst on those days I might have felt alone, I was certainly not on my own.

 

The day that I understood, I wish I could have seen then this journey I’m on that looks good.

I wish I could have seen then the me that’s standing here now, because if I could have seen me then I would have told her to take a proud bow.

I would have said “that journey you’ve been on has been one hell of a ride, but you’ve done us all proud by taking each day in your stride”.

 

The day that I found me, I still remember now how happy it made me be.

I still remember how it felt so good to finally feel as if I was being understood.

To have an explanation for the many years that had caused me frustration, how it made me so happy to finally understand the parts of me that had brought confusion beforehand.


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